So a few days ago, i was on face-book scrolling down my news feed & i came across a post that left me asking a ton of questions while evaluating my own spiritual walk. The person who wrote the post was encouraging saints to share their testimonies because they matter & ultimately show what God has done for them. However, the part that really convicted me was when she said that some of us don't want to share our testimonies because we feel as though our testimonies are irrelevant for they are not traumatic enough. The key word here is traumatic because some of us we feel like since we were not involved in things such as drugs, sex or struggled with homosexuality then our stories are not significant. If one could have seen my face at that particular moment; they would have suggested that i close my mouth or a fly would enter because of how shocked i was. lol. But seriously God hit me with this post that i couldn't stop thinking about it the entire day because this is what i've been struggling with the past few months.
Personally, i would say that i did not struggle with things such as homosexuality, drugs or partying. However i did struggle with loneliness, insecurity & more so i played church. After giving my life to Christ, i could hear everyone talk about the importance of people sharing their testimonies but deep inside i didn't want to because i did not think my story mattered for i didn't struggle with things that one could view as serious or traumatic. Honestly at times i felt like i did not enjoy the world enough for me to actually have a real testimony that would leave people wanting to know the God that saved me. As crazy as that sounds, that's how i felt & i knew it was wrong. The enemy deceived me by planting such thoughts in my mind that i may run back to the world !!!
The thing that we need to understand about our testimonies is that they are supposed to Glorify God & not ourselves. So many times people share their testimonies but weigh so much on the attention their testimonies are getting. One of the things that God was showing me is that i have been so focused on who would be interested in hearing my testimony when he is concerned about me sharing my story that he may use it to touch someone else. Here i am, "God but my story is not that important, i mean i didn't struggle with anything people would consider serious or in this case traumatic such as homosexuality or ended up having a child out of wedlock. I played church & struggled with loneliness & that's pretty much it.And again those people who struggled with all these serious issues played church; so what's so important about my story?" But again where does the Bible state that if your story is not something serious it should not be shared? The Bible says in Revelation 12: 11 "And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and their testimony. And they did not love their lives so much that they were afraid to die." (KJV). Let's focus on the first part of this verse verse, they overcame him the by the blood of the Lamb & their testimony. Do you see how significant our testimonies are? The enemy knows how powerful our testimonies are & he will try every possible way to stop us from sharing them. He was completely defeated when Jesus Christ died & rose again for our sake & he is defeated the more when we witness to others what God has done for us.
For some of us the biggest hindrance in regards to sharing our testimonies is the fear of people judging us. We are so concerned of what people will think about us but honestly it does not matter what they think because they didn't save you & you're not sharing your testimony to please them!! What matters is that your story is relevant & God wants to use it to help someone else. I know your not proud of some of the things that you did in the past but again your past does not define you. Christ saved you & has given you new life !! You are different & you know that deep down inside;so stop letting what other people think get in the way of who God has called you to be!! If your struggling with this; i encourage you to seek Christ & ask him to give you the Grace to let go of your past & to embrace the new life he has given you through his Son Jesus Christ.
So i say all this to say that your story matters & stop feeling like you have to to explore the world more so that your story may feel relevant or similar to someone else's. Truth is; we all can testify that we were broken & lost without God, and after all he deserves the Glory. I pray that God will open our hearts that we may share our testimonies & not let anything hinder us from doing so :)
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I love you all & cheers to sharing our testimonies to the world;
Edith<3
