Feeling Empty?

Surely it's been awhile since i blogged & i apologize for that but i just want to share what has been on my heart.  This area of emptiness is something that i personally struggle with & i just want to share a little bit on this . This area is surely something because you feel like nothing is working out & you are totally drained altogether. Ever been in that place when you feel like you are trying so hard to seek Christ but you can't seem to breakthrough? You feel  as through you've missed him and you cannot seem to hear him. You try to press in His presence but you are struggling with your own personal issues that you feel as though you are losing hope? You try so hard to trust God, but you end up failing because you are now trying to handle matters on your own. I totally understand this feeling & it's surely painful when you feel like this.

I know exactly how you feel & i'll be the first to say that this place is so difficult. However, you don't have to stay empty. Wanna know why? You have Jesus who will quench your THIRST & EMPTINESS. Although you feel empty &your flesh so badly wants to use other ways to quench that thirst you feel within, Christ can meet you wherever you are. You ask how can i get over this feeling of emptiness? You have to seriously walk with Christ. As i write this, i'm speaking to myself on this area. It's so easy to take  our eyes of Christ & think you got it, but honestly you don't. Colossians 3:2 "Set your minds above, not on earthly  things."  I love this scripture because it is a reminder to keep my eyes fixed on Christ & not the temporal things. When we take our eyes off Christ, we begin to get distracted & then we feel STUCK!! So are your eyes fixed on Christ or are you busy trying to handle everything on your own but you know deep inside you are totally drained? Be honest with yourself, you know cannot handle it on your own. You need Christ to fill you once again & you have to admit it. This now leads me to my next point. 

We have to admit that we are empty & seek God to fill us up again. I'll be honest with you: one of the things that i tend to do when i feel empty, is i start running away from God. You now ask why? Well, because i don't want to admit that i'm empty & probably because i will have to tell God what i've done. I feel like i have let him down again & i have to tell Him everything. One of the things that i have noticed personally with myself, is every moment i feel empty it means i have stopped relying on Christ & my heart is far from Him. I start to indulge in things that are so contrary to His word & because i know what i have done, i don't want to tell Him. There he is tugging on my heart "Edith, come & admit what you have done & i'll help you". Yet here i am saying "Lord, but i failed you again & i know you are disappointed with me,  and i don't want to be honest about what i did". So this is exactly what i tend to do but i can tell you the more i hide, the more i find myself  spiritually empty. So instead of saying you are okay when you're not; admit to Christ that you have messed up & you need His  Grace to help you in whatever you are struggling with. And again, God knows you're empty and wants you to confess all your sins, and all your failures to Him. "1st  John 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful & just and will forgive us  our sins & purify us from all unrighteousness". He is crazy faithful & i can tell you, he will restore & meet you where you are. So let go, and ADMIT IT!!!

Thirdly, you have to believe that He is the only person who can fill you. It's so easy during this place to feel like that other things can feel that void you feel within. I can be the fist person to tell you that NOTHING ELSE SATISFIES. I have tried to ignore that emptiness but the only cure for it is CHRIST!! Whenever i feel empty, i tend to look so for many things to ignore this feeling of emptiness. I love music and  honestly i  try to use this as a way of escape but it never works. I can listen to all the Gospel songs but i'm still empty because i am not seeking Christ & i think i got it. WRONG!  There is nothing wrong with listening to music but that's not your way for escape. We tend to create so many things to ignore that voice within that tells us that we need God's help. I can't tell you how much i feel restored when I come to God & put everything to Him. He comes & fills me up, and forgives me when i seek for his forgiveness. He loves you very much & desires to speak to you. 

In this place, the enemy tries to condemn & remind you of how unworthy you are to be loved by Christ. This is something that I find struggling with. I find myself thinking negative thoughts instead of believing Christ & what he says about me. The enemy whispers that you are unlovable, and i take that in, instead of fighting back with God's word ;that nothing can separate me from his love. (Romans 8:31-39)  Emptiness leads to us falling in to the tricks of the enemy. So when you are feeling empty, Run to Christ & not further from Him.  Again as i write this, i speak to myself because i need this reminder everyday. When the enemy whispers those lies to you fight back & remind Him the Word of God. The enemy flees when you speak the Word of God because His word is Power. (James 4:7) 

I know this walk can be hard at times, and as i said before it was never meant to be easy. However, we need to understand that we are not alone. He is there to strengthen & help us when we feel weak. We cannot do this alone & that's why we need Him. I love the scripture Isaiah 41:13. Such a beautiful reminder that God is with us & we should not fear no matter what. "For I am the Lord your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you" . Christ is with you whenever you feel empty & He wants to fill you up. Seek Him & read His Word daily for it is there that He will speak to  you. It is not enough to just attend Church & think that is enough. We need to seek Him daily in that secret place. So if you're feeling empty, it's my prayer that God will fill you up. That he will give you the strength to seek him when you don't feel like it. Keep fighting the the good fight of faith. We are not perfect but a people who are in need of a savior everyday. Btw, if you are struggling with accepting God's love, speak it over yourself & seek Christ on that area. 

I love you all dearly. 

Edith.